Author: Mihir

  • Listen to the silence

    Listen to the silence

    This post, originally written in 2007, feels closer than ever today.

    Have you experienced times when you ran out of words? Times when silence did most of the talking? Or Moments when your heart made all the decisions?

    Let me assist you in recalling…

    That moment when you passed your exams, especially when you knew you were sure to fail in a subject or two. And you did much better than you had expected! When you sit alone in your room after the news sinks in, you get kind of numb, don’t you?

    That moment when that girl or boy you have a crush on, smiles at you! You don’t say anything, just smile back! That smile means the world to you. Definitely the beginning of something special.

    That moment when you’re parting with an old friend and the train has just started. All you do is wave goodbye and think about when you would meet again. The heart is heavy, but there’s the hope of seeing each other tomorrow.

    That moment when you’d applied for a job and are told, “You are through! Congratulations!”

    I can go on and on…

    Have you thought about why we never say anything during such moments? It’s as if the words are simply understood. The feelings conveyed through our silence. Happiness, agony, frustration, excitement; everything seems crystal clear during these instants.

    Can you imagine the importance of a silent moment in a song? When Bryan Adams stops for a while along with music, before he goes on in his husky voice… “Please forgive me… I can’t stop loving you!”

    These moments of self-talk are the most important in our lives. Those promises, those decisions. These are the moments which define what we become in life. When was the last time you spoke to yourself? Silently? What does your heart say? Does it accept you for who you are? Or does it ask you to improve? Or ask of you not to give up on something? Or to give something your best shot?

    Next time you go silent; listen carefully to what your heart is saying. Listen to its joy, listen to its pain. Listen to its fears; listen to its desires. Don’t make your heart shut up and go off to sleep.

    And treasure your precious moments. Every time you do something, every time you are with your loved ones – be it friends, family or that special someone. However small the moment, if it’s special – go on, feel good about it!

    © 2013 Mihir Kamat

    Feb 17, 2014 – And quite fits this weeks writing challenge.

  • Feeling the moonlight

    Feeling the moonlight

    I sometimes wonder to myself
    Does not the moon get lonely?
    To be sitting up there in the night
    Looking down, so bright and lovely

    He must be looking at our cities
    Electric lights, like small stars twinkle
    I think he must be getting jealous
    As our fireworks sparkle

    And then I see it; the little game
    He plays with the clouds, his friends
    A childish game of hide and seek
    As tranquility ascends

    And there she is! the lovely star
    Like a diamond in the sky
    She shines so sweetly, bright and young
    The jewel of his eye

    The fireworks stop, but the sky still shines
    The moon so full and bright
    And not one, not two, but a billion stars
    They make the black go white!

    He’s not alone, he makes it known
    To my wonderful delight
    I just sit and take in all the beauty
    While feeling the moonlight.

    © 2013 Mihir Kamat

    Inspired by today’s daily prompt – Lost.

  • All that matters

    Every once in a while
    Comes a time
    When two pairs of eyes meet
    With gazes locked and loaded
    And each pair sees their world
    In the mirror that is the other pair

    Every once in a while
    Comes a time
    When distance doesn’t matter
    When two hearts speak
    And the silence is pierced
    By two harmonious heartbeats

    And the feel of their breath
    On your skin so tantalizing
    That you can only find forever
    In the comfort of their arms

    So often we say
    That fairy tales are hokum
    Or that it happens only in movies;
    That a true happy ending
    Is always elusive
    Even to those who seek it dearly

    But then why does it happen
    That every once in a while
    The heart stops just for a moment;
    The mind spins ever so slightly
    And the sudden rush of blood
    Makes you feel like you’re falling
    Head over heels

    Every once in a while
    Comes a time
    When distance doesn’t matter
    And all time stands still
    When something just clicks
    And all that matters
    Is the love in the air.

    © 2013 Mihir Kamat

    Original image courtesy of coverbooth.com

  • Extinct

    Extinct

    He fought the feeling with every ounce of his strength. A feeling that he was about to die. That his species would end. And his world would be over in an instant. Extinct.

    He despised the humans. He thought maybe he was one of them, or maybe not. But he knew that it was they who brought this suffering on him. He was subjected to unthinkable pain only because of them.

    The experiment had gone horribly wrong. What originally started as an attempt to create a fully grown human being out of nothing but the very best DNA, turned into a living nightmare. He was the nightmare. Someone had contaminated the DNA with strands of dog hair. The scientists had thus managed to create a beast; a human-like life form with animal features. They realized what had happened only twenty days into the experiment; by then it was too late to pull the plug.

    The experiment went on for a month. The scientists watched as the transformation took place; recording every moment for future playback and making copious notes of the creature’s every movement. The sample evolved into a blob-like embryo in their glass incubator; it was specially fabricated so they could watch as it happened. The blob developed limbs, a musculature followed by human like bone structure. They watched as the skin grew in, barely covering up the grotesque life form. In due time, the figure developed facial features, hair, teeth and male genitalia. The creature’s face was human for the most part; with the addition of sharp canines, a snout like nose and silky hair. The scientists watched as his muscles developed; they observed that this creature was very strong. By the end, the creature could stand and walk upright, but he seemed subdued by all the attention he was receiving.

    He didn’t know why he existed. They called him wolf. He liked to see the fear in their eyes as they walked into the room. Their stares of amazement were fodder to his ego. He was after all, partially human. But he knew he was more than that. He hated being caged, chained and fed raw food. He felt uncomfortable in the clothes he was forcibly dressed in. His taste and intellect had developed manifold. As the months passed by, so did his animal desires. He was superior to them all; he had mastered the English language within two months of hearing his first words. He abhorred that they did tests on him every day, as if he were a mere object only meant to be studied. He grew stronger day by day and began to resist confinement, and he grew violent as the days progressed. Their response was simple; they began to tranquillize him.

    He decided to bide his time. He knew escape was near; he just had to wait for the right moment.

    Thirty five days later. The moon shone brightly in the night. The light in the gallery stirred up something within him. It was as if he was responding to a natural urge; somewhat like a reflex. He began howling; he felt extremely agitated and was growing restless in his cage.

    The scientists knew that they couldn’t control him anymore; they would now have to end what they created. They injected something into his bloodstream. The substance made him drowsy and alert; all at the same time. The neurotoxin was aimed at slowing down brain activity, which would eventually turn him into a vegetable.

    He fought the feeling with every ounce of his strength. A feeling that he was about to die. That his species would end. And his world would be over in an instant. Extinct.

    But in the next instant he felt relieved. Whatever they gave him wasn’t killing him, only making him stronger. He felt his muscles growing larger and larger by the second. He felt strong; free. The humans were going to pay. They were the ones going to be exterminated.

    His chest expanded in fury. The shackles broke under the strain, the bars too soft for his superhuman strength. Vengeance was his for the taking.

    * * *

    The boy watched as the lights to his home went dim. He ran over to the front porch, only to look at the building right across the horizon. His mommy had told him that scientists did all kinds of cool stuff in there; and he’d seen the lights flicker there before. Wow! He started imagining all sorts of things. No one was home; his parents were out leaving him under the non-existent supervision of the baby sitter. She apparently had better things to do; like make long distance phone calls to her boy friend across the country. The lights went off; the emergency generator kicked in. He could now see the building across from him in pitch darkness; almost as if someone had flipped a switch. He gazed in awe at the moon, which shone brightly above. He heard a long howl which scared him to hell. He clutched a wooden chair and stood there, frightened. He saw a figure walk up towards him. His limbs froze. As the figure came closer, the horror in the boy’s eyes grew by the second. The boy couldn’t take it anymore, he wet himself. The monster was going to get him.

    The “monster” put his hand on the boy’s head and spoke, “So you’re going to be the boy who cried wolf”.

    © 2013 Mihir Kamat
    Inspired by this week’s writing challenge.
  • A place for two

    This used to be a place for two
    Where I’d sit and look into your deep blue eyes
    And seem to lose track of all time

    Where conversation had new meaning
    We’d roam the depths of life together
    Hand in hand, day by day
    Where I’d hear your voice right next to me
    And lay eyes upon your face
    While watching your expression as you watched mine

    Where I’d rest my eyes upon your wonderful smile
    That curve that sets a lot of things straight
    And melts my heart like a hot knife through butter

    And where even silence had substance
    Where our eyes did the talking
    And ears could hear only the sound of soft breaths
    And the occasional sigh of love

    But where did it all change?
    Where did it all go wrong?
    For now I only see myself
    Looking back at me, in the gleaming glass
    On the face of my phone, waiting, wishing
    If I’d only hear your voice once again
    But instead I hear annoying beeps
    Or pings, or dreary tones banal
    Those keep me awake at night

    The heart longs for human touch
    But all it gets is steel, plastic and glass
    And the waiting, the anticipation
    That something will happen; might happen
    The mind is hopeful
    The heart filled with desire

    And finally, it beeps! This lifeless contraption
    Has finally come alive
    You send me your picture; my hearts sings with joy
    I know it’s just a picture, but it warms me inside
    I finally see you; oh how long I have waited
    To gaze again into those deep blue eyes
    My eyes can’t get enough of you
    Of your face, your radiant beauty
    Until all I can see is my own reflection
    As the back light dies
    Just like the battery is about to.

    We were supposed to be closer
    With technology, connected at all times
    Then why does it feel different; alone,
    All alone in this place for two.

    © 2013 Mihir Kamat
    Inspired by this week’s writing challenge.
  • Live like you mean it

    Don’t cry over spilt milk
    Or worry about what could have been
    A missed opportunity is not the end of the world
    Only a humble beginning of what’s in store
    Have hunger to complete what you began
    Nothing is ever a lost cause
    ‘Cause you believe in it
    And are willing to fight for it.

    Not everyone sees life in a single way
    There will be naysayers and critics all around us
    Mocking our every move, taunting our every breath
    But learn to ignore them, to feed from them
    And move on anyways; onwards to glory
    To finish what you started
    To bring to fruition what can and what will be
    To fight for what is right
    Because you live life only once.

    So live like you mean it.
    Live your life properly
    Because when judgment day comes
    And you queue up to meet your maker
    When all time is standing still
    And the gatekeeper has one question to ask you
    Was your life worth it?
    Then you have one, only one answer
    You bellow at the top of your voice
    “I can’t wait to do this again”.

    © 2013 Mihir Kamat
  • Incomplete

    Why did you have to go so far away?
    All I needed was one chance
    A chance to make “us” work
    A chance to do things differently

    I can’t tell you how much I’ve been missing you
    Not just your laugh
    Not just your warmth
    But you, every bit of you

    It’s been days since we last talked,
    Months since our first kiss,
    Years since we’d first met.
    I’d known then that you were the one,
    And you took my heart away with your smile

    I’d gotten used to seeing forever,
    In that twinkle in your eyes
    But now my past, my present, my future,
    Don’t matter anymore

    This distance is killing me, eating me alive, tearing me apart.
    It feels like a noose tied around my neck, tightening day by day
    I feel empty, like something’s missing
    A part of me taken away

    Without you, I’m just…

    Incomplete.

    © 2013 Mihir Kamat
  • Getting started

    One look was simply not enough; he had to look at her once more
    For the beauty that sat at the other side, was one he’d never seen before

    He didn’t know just how and when, he’d get another chance
    He felt his young heart skip a beat, when he tried to sneak a glance

    She looked along in his direction, and found his gaze collide
    She felt a shiver through her body, a spark she couldn’t hide

    She tried to speak; no words came out, she seemed to lose her voice
    And in that moment passing by, their eyes had made a choice

    This is how their journey began, light-headed and wholehearted
    Their fleeting gaze so magical; their love’s just getting started.

    He still looks at her that very way, though both of them are older
    For he knows, that beauty lies, in the eyes of the beholder

    His eyes are dim, his teeth are bare, and he’s weaker in the knees
    And her hair so gray, so graceful, simply flying in the breeze

    She knows that he’s the only man, who can love her most of all
    And he knows he’s made the right choice, no more in love he could fall

    They sit together quietly, not reminiscing the past
    They know that there aren’t many days, left for them to last

    And yet they sit there, engrossed, light-headed and wholehearted
    Their fleeting gaze still magical; their love’s still getting started.

    © 2013 Mihir Kamat
  • Remember

    Remember

    I feel a heavy throbbing in my head that gets unbearable by the second. I open my eyes, but everything appears to be pitch black in what looks like a tiny room. I seem to be surrounded by walls on all sides. I try to stand up, pull open the curtains right above my bed spread. The sudden gush of light blinds me. I try to shield my eyes, waiting for them to adjust. I give it a minute before I start to ponder over some unanswered questions. Where am I? What am I doing here? Who am I?

    The room is cluttered with rubbish. Old antiques, pictures of famous buildings, takeaway boxes strewn around. I see a single bed near the wall, the one that I inhabited a few minutes back. The sheets were brown with layers of dust collected over many years. Springs were popping out of the mattress that seemed to have taken my shape, permanently. There is a clock on the wall, but it has stopped at ten fifteen. I don’t know if that’s the right time, and I don’t know what day or year it is. Talk about losing time.

    I study the far wall and see a single door standing out. I am curious as to where this might lead to. I might just sit here doing nothing, but I have to clean myself.

    I grab the doorknob and twist it ever so slightly. The knob clicks, but the door doesn’t budge. I see the door is jammed, and I have to give it a slight jerk to force it open. It relents. I pull the door to myself, not knowing what to expect on the other side.

    I see a calendar, pinned up to the wall. It has bold, block letters that can’t be missed. The calendar is set to May 2013, with the first five dates canceled out. I see a felt marker tucked at the top of the calendar; I pull it out and mark the sixth. I know what this means. Today is the sixth day of May. The year is 2013. Quite a weird way to find out.

    I continue to look around. On the right, I see a wall with myriad pictures, wall hangings, newspaper clippings and colored paper tacked up with words scribbled on them. Like a freaky storyboard. I see a mirror at the far end of the wall; I run towards it to get a good look of what I might look like. Why don’t I know what I look like? The question gives me a headache. I see a middle-aged man looking back, ragged, flaunting what looks like a three-day stubble. I’m wearing a plain, deep blue t-shirt that has no markings, on top of light blue shorts. I have a scar on my forehead, a remnant of a deep bruise; a reminder of some sort of serious injury. I look into the mirror and see the reflection of a sign on the other wall, written boldly in red. I look back and study the marking that says “Start here”, just above a bunch of pictures. What next? The sign is pretty obvious.

    I come across a series of pictures, neatly arranged and numbered. Like a sequence; a photo album made up in space that occupied on the wall. The first picture is labeled “John”, and I see a younger and brighter me looking back, smiling away. My name is John. I search for and find the date the picture was taken; some day mid 2002. Maybe there were clues of my life strewn around in the rest of the pictures. I walk around the wall studying each of the exhibits. A bizarre exposition of my life.

    A picture of my family followed. I have a mom, dad, and a kid that looks like me. Maybe a brother. The picture says “Mom, Dad and Steve”. Steve. Doesn’t ring a bell. A picture of both of us at graduation, taken sometime in 1995. Too many faces and dates followed. I get ahead of myself and walk towards one of the newspaper clippings. The date reads November 12, 2007. The photo shows a car crash; a red wagon mangled and engulfed in flames, what was left totally unrecognizable. The headline reads, “3 dead, 1 injured in horrific car crash at Easton”. I continue to read, realizing that the one that survived was me. I couldn’t hold back tears realizing that the family I had just found was no more. I felt empty, alone, helpless. And I still didn’t know where the hell I was.

    I kept reading and found out some facts about myself. That my name was John Keaton. I was 30 years old, and this was my house. I’d lost everything in a car crash a few years back; my family, my job, my memory. A little more reading unearthed the fact that I’m unable to retain anything more than a day’s information. My mind is a clean slate every morning. Like a crazy hangover that lasts a lifetime.

    Imagine walking through a door, only to rediscover your life. Every day. I could think of it as a nightmare put together by the various puzzle pieces I left behind for myself to find. Or as a brand new start without any baggage. The choice was mine and only mine to make. The fact that I’d survived meant a lot. I think I’d made the right choice today. To continue down the path of hope.

    I see the last piece of yellow paper tacked to the wall that says, “Tomorrow never comes”. As if I’m going to remember tomorrow.

    © 2013 Mihir Kamat
    Inspired by this week’s writing challenge.
    Image courtesy of Google.
  • My morning cup

    My morning cup

    Waking up every morning
    The sight of you comforts me
    I could smell you from a distance
    A reason to smile, to reach out

    Your fragrance teases me, tempts me
    Pushes me beyond the edge
    Heightens my senses, now sharp as ever
    Ready for an epic battle

    And as I see your golden body
    Merge with the milky white
    Making heart shapes on your surface
    With a creamy texture

    And the taste lingers on my tongue
    Ever so slowly it grows
    The bitter-sweet symphony
    Playing with my taste buds

    And your warmth overwhelms me
    Intoxicates me, makes me want to live again
    Makes me want to dream, to fight, to sing
    To breathe

    And I realize how much I love you
    My morning cup of coffee,
    What would I do without you?

    © 2013 Mihir Kamat
    Inspired by today’s Daily Prompt – The Little Things